If love is so wonderful, then why do I hurt so bad?

What a wonderful web the lovers they weave,
They build and tear down with an axe they cleave,
Wondering and walking through the web that was wove,

Love without a heart is like life without a breath to live, tears without eyes to cry them, song without the music to sing and legs without the ground to run on.
Life takes some pretty amazing turns. This last one I didn’t

……… . . . . . . . … . . . …
Stop feeling anything.

Am I worthy of love?
The answer seems so simple, yet it isn’t.
In this life I have loved and yet I have never been loved back until it was too late or I was already

Dead is the world that used to be warm around me.
Wanting is the world to lay me to rest.
Dead is the love I had both then and now.
Wanting is the memory of the love to die.
Dead is the trust I once fooled myself to

Such a little word, such a bigger attempt at sincerity.
Sorry. One word, so many meanings.
The bible tells us that God wants us to forgive anyone 7 times 777. In math, that means I need to forgive one person 5,439 times before I can tell them no way, not this time.
Although the bible says nothing of [...]

In the time I lived I loved and dreamed,
In the time I loved I lived and screamed,
In the time I dreamed I was lied to and schemed.

The world it seems has turn against me,
Hollow and wicked as far as I can see.
In my chest is the hole of love and trust,
filled with sadness, lies and disgust.
The world it seems has turned

What if the love you thought you had nolonger exists? What if the heart that beat life into your veins was taken from you? What if the life you live is replaced by the death others mourn?
Life, a complete mess of emotions, feelings and dismay wrapped in a layer of mistrust, sneakiness and lies. This [...]